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[09/25/2006 @ 11:59pm] My life is great. I have amazing friends, lots of new ones, who kick ass! I'm doing winterguard, my hands hurt, and i love it! i tend to stress out a lot, and im really busy most of the time, and sometimes i cant get around to relaxing but im willing to make these sacrifices to do the things i love and having my friends by my side, helping me every step of the way is the best thing a person could ask for I love you all! I'll do anything for you guys ♥Amin 3 READ | COMMENT.

[09/13/2006 @ 9:03am] OMG IM SO BORED. I'm in spanish class in the library right now and I'm trying to waste time and I noticed that I haven't posted in here in a long time. So here I go... I'm officially a member of Braddock Independent Open Winterguard now! (yup, thats right, I made it!) and I'm on the rifle line! w00t w00t. this month practice is every sunday, next month its fridays and sundays, then the next month starts tuesdays and thursdays. btw, i finally started my night school in varela on tuesdays and thursdays. i'm definately amazingly busy now, monday-wednesday is band practice from 3-6, tuesdays and thursdays is night school from 5:45-9 and then winterguard from 7-10, hows that gonna work? idk. then fridays are usually football games, saturdays are my only free days, and sunday is winterguard practice from 12-6. So this saturday i'm going to the movies with a friend from ferguson =D i cant wait, its my only free time, i might as well have some fun. this busyness is getting out of control, i wont be able to see anthony or carlos for at least another week or so, im just too busy and it sucks! but i think itll all get better eventually. mmmmmmmm, im so hungry, today in calculus we're having a "food day" where each of us is bringing food to share with each other. i baked brownies last night, mmmmmm, they smell so good! i cant wait till 5th period. ok so my spanish teacher was standing here tlkin to me and christina about food and shit, then she walked away for 2 SECONDS, and came back telling us that this is a library and we're not supposed to talk! and im like, wtf, "u were just tlkin to us..." and she said "no talking!" and walked away. boredom causes long livejournal posts. `Amin 1 READ | COMMENT.

[08/27/2006 @ 1:12pm] My classes are all getting fucked with cuz stupid me didn't take his foreign languages yet. Now I'm out of Physics and in Spanish 1. I was told to take Spanish 2 in night school, but then I can't do winterguard. I want to do winterguard. badly. I'm gonna see if I can take Spanish 2 online. Hopefully things will work out my way. They usually don't. As far as winterguard goes, Lisette's coming over soon to help me spin. I need a lot of practice. I suck... I don't care if I don't look like a rifle spinner. I want to be one. I'm going to be one. And as far as friends go, I love the ones who are there for me when I need them. They know who they are. For once in my life I need things to go my way. `Amin 1 READ | COMMENT.

OMG [08/20/2006 @ 1:57pm] so. yeah. I've been back home for about a week now and holy shit, a lot has changed/happened. Drum corp was great. I made tons of new friends and some that don't live too far away. A bunch of them actually live in Miami. Ever since I came home I noticed that me and Anthony have gotten a lot closer. & it makes me really happy! =D He's super cool. I've also been hanging out with Lisette and Terri! We all went to the movies last night, tons of fun. OMG. I saw Will Cobos at the movies last night. Holy shit he looks so different! He was with Jessica Sargo, Lisa Perez, and Eunice ! Anyways, a lot else has happened since i got home, a lot of things that shouldnt be mentioned on this so called "internet" lol. Currently, schools like, bleh. I have 4 AP classes. Shoot me now? Band sucks, as usual. And I might be on the senior class board as a senator. Aside from all that, I'm gonna audition for Braddock Independent Open Winterguard! I really need to start practicing. I know its like, uber gay, but I really like it and I've been wanting to spin for so long now but never had the opportunity. I'm buying a rifle from Anthony's instructor and I have a flag pole at home, i just need a silk from guess who? Anthony. lol. auditions are on september 10th! my parents dont want me to do it, but fuck to them! this is something i really want. I just need to break out of my god damn shell. If i wasnt so shy and embarrassed all my life, i prolly wouldve came out of the closet a lot sooner. no one has seen my other side, the side that only the mirror at home sees when im home alone. im hoping thatll change once i start doing winterguard. `Amin 2 READ | COMMENT.

[05/28/2006 @ 1:37am] So I'll be leaving Miami in three and a half hours. You guys can send me letters and e-mail and stuff while I'm gone. This website CLICK HERE! has all the info on how to send me mail and such. Read it all cuz they have strict guidelines for sending mail. This website CLICK has a crap load of info about my corp and my tour schedule and stuff, if you're interested... I love you. `Amin 3 READ | COMMENT.

[05/23/2006 @ 11:06am] Wow, I can't believe this school year's already over! Today in 2nd period we got flyers for Senior pictures. Holy crap! It hit me. I'm gonna be a senior on thursday! A senior!!! It's been 11 years, and now there's just one more year to go... It's amazing how time flies. Today's been good so far. 2nd period we took our final exams. I got an 87. B. Not bad, I guess. Then we had 1st period for 15 minutes, and then 3rd period for 30 minutes. Now it's 5th period; I'm about to take my final exam. It's only 50 questions about Photoshop. I've known the answers to the questions on this test for years now. It's ridiculous. We leave school at 12:30 today. Tonight's the night! Me, Tony, Julio, and my dad are all going to Dave & Buster's tonight to play some pool and watch the basketball game. It's so heterosexual but I kinda like it. I'm not too fond of basketball but recently I've been getting into it. && Tony's a huge Heat fan, but that's not why I'm getting into basketball. I swear >.< So anyways, they'll be comin over at around 6:30-7:00 tonight. Then we're gonna leave my house at around 8. Yesterday was fun, too! 1st period we had to take our exams. AP Physics B. Eek! So we all sit down and Mr.Gibert says "Alright everyone, write your name and date on your test and turn it in. Everyone has an "A" for the final exam." =D It was awesome! Aside from that, not much happened in school. Oh wait. cept for one thing -_- So I was on my way up to Mrs.Piñeiro's room. I'm going up the stairs and when I reach the top, I trip and fall. Hard. I fell on my side and I had my camera and my cell phone in my pocket. No one else was in the stairwell which is a huge relief for me. So I just simply got up, looked around, and walked away. When I got to her classroom I started laughing and told her the story. Then I checked my camera and now it has a crack on the screen! :(! It makes me really sad that everything is cracked now! The camera still works, it's just really ugly now... w.e I also have a big bruise on my thigh that's killing me. After school I went home and just sat around for a bit, then I went to go get contacts! Lucky me, I got into the store 10 minutes before they closed, so I was able to order the contacts. On Wednesday I have to go back to pick them up and learn how to use them and all. After that I stopped by Bryan's house for a bit. Then his mom asked us if we could go make some copies for her, so we went off to Publix. We got the copies and still had a bit of time left before I had to go to my Grandma's house so we went to SMOOTHIE KING! ahhhh!!! I love that place with all my heart. I have a weird craving for almonds now. I wonder why. :) I dropped of Bryan and hauled ass to my Grandma's house. Then at night I said my last goodbye's to most of my family. :( I won't be seeing them before I leave on Sunday. Ok. This post is getting long, I'm gonna stop here. I love you! `Amin COMMENT.

[05/21/2006 @ 12:41am] I had such a good day today! It was full of free Frapuccinos, randomness, disorientation, old Jewish ladies from New York, crazy cursing black men, and a POWER RANGER! A real one! Aside from the great day, someone's making me really upset. That's all! `Amin 2 READ | COMMENT.

And I'm here to sing this anthem... [05/18/2006 @ 11:18pm] WARNING: This is most likely the longest post I have ever made. Only the brave should read it. Today was a good day. I spent most of first period talking to Gaelyn, Jorge & Leony. Leony started getting annoying though. He started complaining about some of the things I was talking about. I was like "Dude, if you don't like what I have to say then don't fucking talk to me. I'm not forcing you." He's super childish. Second period I had my final essay exam which I made up completely, I hope I did somewhat decent. Third period was band; we did the usual band stuff. Fourth period I had to take a make up essay exam since I was absent yesterday. Finished it in 10 minutes. I spent the rest of my time talking with Liliana. I love that girl to death. We walked to our lockers to get our Calculus books to turn in. I was talking to her about Tony (the guy im obsessed with) and Tony comes from around the corner and he's like "I knew I heard your voice! Hey! Whats up!?" I froze for a second but then I realized he didn't know we were talking about him. hehe. So he joined us all the way back to class. Javier put a CD on Mrs.Alvarez's computer. It was a CD full of sad end-of-the-year songs. The rest of the period I sat with Lili and really opened up to her about some things. My main problem was that it took me really long this year to loosen up to people. For the first half of the year I sat alone and didn't talk to anyone in that class & everyone was really cool... Half way through the year, me and lili got closer, and then in the 4th nine weeks, I finally got closer with the rest of the class, especially Tony. Now here's the problem: I'm leaving in a week. I wasted so much time. Most of the reason why I wasted time was cuz I was confused for a long time. I really didn't know who I was. Now that I'm out, happy, and FREE, it's too late. At this point I was a bit, teary eyed... I know this summer is gonna be great. I'm gonna make a lot of new friends and they're gonna be just like my new family. I'll be spending my entire summer, night & day, with them. But I can't help but feel sad when I think about all the things that could happen if I stay here. Within the last few months, I have grown tremendously. I made a lot of new friends, some who are already really close friends, and a lot that I cannot afford, nor want, to lose. Let me end this emoness. I shouldn't think about it anymore... ANYWAYS! Fifth period I had another make up essay exam which I did in 5 minutes and then signed out of class to go hang out with my colorguard hoes. I love those girls! We were in Mrs.Piñeiro's room. They decided to play baseball with water bottles and paper balls. Let me tell you, I have never laughed so hard in my life! The look on Karina's face while she was batting was priceless. Sixth period wasn't much, just talked with some friends and signed yearbooks. Afterschool I went home and took a nap. I woke up and called Bryan to see if Gaby & Robert were at his house. They were over at Fuddruckers so I drove over and joined them. Afterwards we went to International Mall in pursuit of finding cheap red pumps for Gaby. We searched the entire mall and couldn't find anything in our price range. We met up with Bryan's family and went over to Dolphin Mall. Thankfully, we found Gaby some damn shoes and got it over with! Gaby, Robert, and Bryan's family left a little before Bryan & I did. We headed over to the food court to get me something to eat. I was talking to Bryan about something I didn't realize till recently. For some reason, I just can't seem to be myself around a few certain people. When I'm with them, I tend to tighten up and be kinda quiet, and if you know me you'd know, that's not me. I'm gonna work on stopping that before I make it a habit. So then I dropped off Bryan and came home. No one's home right now. My parent's are out and my sister left too. It's nice to have the house to myself sometimes. I need to get some sleep. Tomorrow should be a good day. I love you all. `Amin 1 READ | COMMENT.

To answer Chris & Amy's comments [05/15/2006 @ 11:42pm] Here's how it happened, I wanted to go to a psychologist to talk to her about things and for help with coming out to my mom (I'm gay Amy, not bi, that was a phase). So my mom made an appointment and everything got messed up and I ended up not going. So I got fed up and I just told her, she told me that I'm lost, confused, and that I'm not really gay... So then she wanted me to go to the psychologist; she made an appointment; we went. She told the psychologist that I was confused, lost, that I don't know who I am and that I think that I'm gay. After talking to the psychologist alone she realized that I'm not confused and we just need to get my mom to accept it. She talked to her, but it didn't work completely. My mom still believes that once I find the right person, whoeverthefuck that might be, that I will realize that I'm not gay. I think she's slowly accepting it though... meh, all is well. `Amin PS - Yeah Amy, I think I'm gonna join the color guard. I kinda like it ^.^ 2 READ | COMMENT.

[05/14/2006 @ 2:25am] Well guys, I only have 12 days left here... I was sad. But now, I can't wait to go! This trip is exactly what I need. I need to get away from miami and have no worries for a while. I know this is gonna be a summer I'll never forget. As far as leaving my friends behind, it's gonna be really hard to do, but I have to let go. Distance only makes the heart grow fonder. `Amin 6 READ | COMMENT.

[05/12/2006 @ 5:54pm] ooowhoooaaa. what up yo? a lot of shit goin on recently. I came out to my mom. My sister graduated from UM. I'm extremely close to quitting band. I'm going to join the colorguard. I'm leaving in 13 days!!! I'm a bit scared guys, but I know it's gonna be uber fun. I love you all. `Amin 2 READ | COMMENT.

[05/07/2006 @ 11:56am] Prom was fucking amazing. So yeah, afterwards, we like, went to a hotel... and slept :) That's my story and I'm sticking with it. `Amin COMMENT.

[04/25/2006 @ 11:48pm] WELL! I just got home from watching the play at Braddock, which was fun. Bryan did great & I'm sure it would've fallen apart without Frankie's work! Bravo to the both of them. Aside from all that, I'm having the feeling of breaking down. Tomorrow I have a concert at FIU for All-County Band, which no one is going to, cept for my family. It's really upseting, but who cares? It's just my stupid concert anyways. That concert will be my last social event for a while. Thursday is just a normal school day. Then Friday I leave for Orlando once again for drum corp camp. 37 days till I'm gone for good. There are a few certain people who I really want to spend more time with. Ay, maybe I need the time away from everyone... I dunno. I'm really confused... I'm gonna go to bed for now... long day tomorrow... `Amin 1 READ | COMMENT.

[04/23/2006 @ 12:59pm] I have a new favorite local band! Their name is Homebody, and they rocked yesterday! That lead singer... damn, too bad he's straight. `Amin 2 READ | COMMENT.

[04/15/2006 @ 5:19pm] So, I was watching Degrassi last night. I already knew what happened with Jimmy, Rick, and the shooting, But I never saw those episodes... till last night. Holy shit dude. It was crazy. I even cried a bit. "/ ♥ Amin 3 READ | COMMENT.

[04/14/2006 @ 9:42pm] Today was "Good Friday" Honestly, what was good about it? It was ok. 2 READ | COMMENT.

[04/08/2006 @ 1:01am] Long post! Read it because you love me! Today was a rather fun day. I woke up late, got to school at around 8:15. First period wasn't much, just sat around for 15 minutes. Gaelyn told me that I smelled really nice. =] I <3 her. Second period, we listened to our teacher tell us her life story bout how she used to be a nun, fun eh? Then I made fun of Mara for a while. =] Third period was fun. I got to take off my clothes... to put on a tuxedo! We set up all the jazz band equipment in the Library for the teacher luncheon. Fourth period, played some Super Smash Bros Melee! I absolutely <3 that game. Then I talked to a very good looking person for the rest of the time. ^.- Fifth period was our performance, after playing at both lunches, we were dead tired and starving, so they fed us some amazing food. While we were eating, everyone was makin jokes and they didn't seem to know I was bi. So every gay joke they said to me, I was just like "heehee. ok." After eating, packing up, and changing clothes, I was heading to Mrs.Coto's room to turn in my budget sheet for my campain. I look through the window by the door, there were a bunch of people inside, and one guy was standing on top of the table unziping his pants... someone noticed me looking (I was only looking for a second) and they all started laughing and the guy jumped off and zipped up... I was like "uhhh.. anyone know where Mrs.Coto is?" extremely weird. He was hot though, I kinda wish they didn't notice me... so I got to sixth period at 2:00 and everyone was inside watching the video of the sign language show we had on tuesday and so concluded the school day. I walked with Sam & Marcia to my car, and once again, Marcia drenches me with a bottle of water. I'm gonna buy some window paint and have some fun with her car one day >:) I went home and took a long nap. When I woke up, I called some friends to see what I was gonna do tonight... I have come to the conclusion that some people just suck. It also turns out that a certain Jewnese person is talking crap about me, or so I hear... w/e He can go choke on some Matza (rofl). I ended up going to Hard Rock Casino with my parents and my sister. It was a lot of fun. Won some, lost some, left with a surplus of money =D Before we left we got some Ice Cream which is just what I needed. =] We sat down on the bench outside and waited for the valet people to bring our car. It is truly a small world. The people sitting next to us on the bench were persian and were speaking farsi to each other. The guy was getting mad at the valet people and shouted (in farsi) "MOVE ALREADY. JUST GO DIE." I laughed to myself. That whole time my attention was directed towards the cute person a bench or two down. When the people sitting next to us' car arrived, they got up, got inside the car, and to my damn surprise, so did the cute guy that was sitting a few benches down. Mark my words, this is probably the only time I have ever seen a cute Iranian boy my age. First & Last. So now I'm home writing this... Aside from my great day, my sister scared me a couple days ago. I was asking her for advice... on April 27th, there is a show at Braddock that a friend wants me to go to. Also on the same day & time, there is a DCI show at the movie theater that I'd like to go to... How the hell am I supposed to decided between the two!? So I asked my sister. She basically told me to go to the DCI show. She explained to me that friends come and go, and that after my tour this summer, I'm gonna lose contact with a lot of my friends, and maybe even the one who wants me to go to the Braddock show, which was the point she was trying to get to... All I gotta say is, wtf. It really scared me... as much as I know she may be right, I don't want her to be right! I'm really scared about going on tour now... It's not just about this friend. But I jsut don't wanna lose anyone, period. Not now at least... Now I'm super tired, off to bed! `Amin 1 READ | COMMENT.

[04/07/2006 @ 7:14pm] 55 MORE DAYS That's all that's left. `Amin COMMENT.

[04/01/2006 @ 11:30pm] I don’t wanna be lonely no more I don’t wanna have to pay for this I don’t want to know the lover at my door It’s just another heartache on my list I don’t wanna be angry no more You do know I could never stand for this So when you tell me that you love me, know for sure I don’t wanna be lonely anymore I thought about those lyrics a LOT. It's how I've been feeling lately... But now, I'm so over it. Fuck that. I don't have time to waste. I'm 16, healthy, have a car and lots of money. Why am I wasting my life away!? Spring Break is coming up! Don't to get to reserve your day with yours truly! There's no way in hell I'm gonna spend a day at home. That's just stupid. `Amin COMMENT.

[03/31/2006 @ 11:26pm] long time no post! so, the last couple days were funnnn. on wednesday i went with sarah (my vice pres!) after school to the dollar store & walmart to buy stuff for our campaign! after that i picked up bryan and went to his house, then i did like, his entire english project, lmao. that night kinda sucked tho. when i went home, my mom made me put on a hat (cuz of my fohawk) and go to my uncles house. i was mad. thursday i went to the fair!!! woooo! it was a LOT of fun, it was me, carlos, bryan, and frankie. i almost threw up like 50456 times, but i never did. i was dragged onto sooo many rides that i shudve never gone on. oh well. later on we played a hugging game. lol. we were acting sooo stupid, but it was awesome. when we left, it took us over 15 minutes to find my car!! lmao. today in school was blah, after school i stuck around for the guard practice, then i went to the movies to see She's The Man with yani and nicolette. the movie was great. after the movie i went by bryans house for about an hour, didnt do too much, just talked for a while. then i went home... my mom told me that my online school teacher called. he told her that i havent been turning in work, and now thanks to that, i can't go out! -_- i did something else recently, i told a friend i liked him. i knew what was coming, but i did it anyways. what i predicted did, in fact, happen. oh well. its like, the story of my life... "Be my friend!" (you know you want to, everyone else is doing it) so im super tired now, i think im gonna just go to bed soon. i have a lot of work to do 2morrow... `Amin 2 READ | COMMENT.

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